19 June 2012 | By: Writing Buddha

I'm a GRADUATE now- This Is A New Beginning !!!

602nd BLOG POST -->>


         I still remember the day of 4th June, 2009, when I was sitting in front of the PC to check my 12th board's result. I had the main door of my house open as I pre-decided that if I'll fail I'll directly run towards the terrace and jump. What more can a boy expect when he scored 15-20% less than what his parents expected from him in 10th? And more over, what more can a depressed soul think of who failed 11th std twice? I didn't score any passing result from 27th June, 2006 to 3rd June, 2009. That is enough to understand why was I prepared to jump from the terrace. After few minutes, when the clock hit 11 AM and the result was made available, I was surprised to see that I passed the 12th std board. Yes, a boy who never scored more than 5 marks in any subject through out the year in the coaching classes, who had no idea about a Single sentence of his portion until January passed the toughest exam of life in an attempt. Wow!!!! I hugged my mother and kept crying for 15 minutes. She had more tears in her eyes than me. I was too mentally challenged at the moment because it was harder for me to believe that the most useless and the biggest failure I ever saw in my life(that was me) passed a Board exam with more than 50% of marks. 

            That was the day when I wrote in my diary,"Abhilash, your ashes would have been traveling in River Ganga if you would not have passed today. From here, every second that you will live, will be a Bonus life to you. It is almost a Second Life. From now, live for developing yourself and trying each and every thing. Stop comparing yourself with those who are ahead of you and to those who are nowhere if compared to you. Live for yourself. Compare your each day with your yesterday and see if you have progressed. Live your Life. And never think of failing again. Even if you fail, remember, you passed with brilliance when you were the shittiest person for yourself on this Earth". I read this in my diary just 5 minutes ago. I already have tears in my eyes. 

        Today, I have GRADUATED successfully. YES!!! The same child who failed 11th twice, never bought more than 5 marks in any subject throughout 12th is a GRADUATE. And, the sentence that I wrote on 4th June, 2009 always remained with me whenever I lost the touch of non-stoppable approach in my life. I remembered that this is my 2nd life and I have to make most out of it. That resulted in me being the Best I have ever been. Rather than comparing myself to other losers of my class, who are happy with their Ranks even when they know that their percentage is something that should be kept with shit and flushed away, I am happy to see myself scoring more than what I scored in 12th Board. I never failed in any Subject in any Semester of my Graduation. That's almost a new life that I have lived after 4th June. I am too happy for myself. Let people say that I'll not get a better job with this kind of percentage, I am still happy with whatever I have done. If, in the same way, I'll keep competing with my own self and my own results, there will be a day when every organization will try to accept me. At least I have stopped comparing myself with other losers and self-proclaimed winners around me. Today, I can speak English with confidence, I can give Presentations with confidence, I can revolt against any injustice or extremes without fear, I can be friends with anyone whom I want to be with, I can motivate everyone around me by telling them how I overcame against incessant failures. That's what I call a RESULT for myself.

           Some classmates whom I have really respected for being competitive with themselves(rather than self-proclaimed Rankers) are Siddhesh, Prema, Sameer and Saquib. These people competed with their own results which made them do something that is far beyond the approach of anyone else. Siddhesh Patil- This guy has topped our class but I don't respect him for this. For what I respect him is- His 70% marks in the Final Semester that was untouched by anyone of us and far beyond our imaginations because of the worst internal assessment marks that we got. This is something too incredible. Secondly, this guy has scored 81 marks in a theoretical subject that is not scored by anyone in any subject in the class. Next, Prema Rajput.- She writes paper exactly as I dream to write but I'm still unable to. This girl has scored 87 marks in Mathematics that is not scored by anyone in any written examination in our class. This is an extra-ordinary scoring. Sameer- This guy hasn't done anything special in his Academics but the way he has transmogrified his life has been amazing. With the graduation studies, he had been nowhere behind in committing himself to the job that he kept doing for two years. Now, he is the only boy in our class to have 2 years job experience with Graduation + he has a permanent job now + he has enrolled himself for MBA Correspondence. This guy is going to have a very good future. Saquib- He has screwed his life just as I did in 11th because of which he'll have to wait a year more to be a Graduate but the respect that I have for him is for the 94 marks that he scored in Computer Lab which is the HIGHEST by anyone in our class in any damn subject. Plus, the so-called rankers has no knowledge of Computer while he is the only guy in our class to know the most of what we have studied. WOW!!!

              How can I be null when I have such Inspiring people around me? I am too proud of these people because they have achieved these feats by keeping their past records in mind rather than racing to be No.1 in a class of 25 Students where everyone is a Loser. Except this, I don't respect anyone for their Academic/Professional performance. Today, as a Graduate student, I am still willing to take my life to the next level by enrolling myself in Post-Graduation this year and be a MASTERS after 3 years of MCA. And I'll not stop even after that. I have many things pre-decided but I'll disclose them only after I pass MCA. And even if I'll fail in any Semester of MCA, I'll not frustrate. I'll do better next time. After two months, I will be in New college with new classmates, making new friends and enjoying a totally new life. I am so excited for it. Today, when I see that my parents are happy to see their Son back to Life who was Out of it, I promise my soul that I'll not let it cry any time in future. I'll do almost every struggle to keep widening the smile of my parents. They have a Single Child and I want them to be proud of him. At least, they are enough matured that they don't compare my marks with any of my friends' marks. They are happy to see their son at least studying and developing himself and his personality. That gives me a Flexibility in life to try new things by scoring mediocrity in academics. Otherwise, it would have become challenging and frustrating to chase the pupil in my class those have scored more than me(But still compare even the Topper of our class with all the Graduates, he is no where. I don't know why people don't see themselves in a Bigger Frame of Picture, why to claim themselves as a Better student by comparing to the only 25 students). Huh!!!
     


           In the end, I would like to thank all of you here in my Virtual world who kept giving me Confidence that I have something extra-ordinary in me and I'll be better than my yesterday if I'll keep up the attitude in the same manner as I have been doing. Your presence in my life has motivated me more than my commitment I wrote in the diary. I would also want all of you to give a flying salute to Siddhesh, Prema, Sameer and Saquib. They have been the only ones who fought with their yesterdays than anyone else's present. Very few people has such kind of an attitude. And with this, My GRADUATION completes with my GRADUATION BLOG POST too :-) I would like to thank Richa Mandhyan who provided me notes. My Senior- Gaurav Rathore because of whom I passed Maths in a semester. And last but not the least, I would like to thank Mr. Ganesh Bhosale who helped me during my Admission phase of Graduation. Otherwise, I would have started Graduation after a year. Bhai, you have been an angel in my life who turned it upside down. Thanks a lot. And do Congratulate your favorite Blogger for being a Graduate because 602 Blog Posts came when he was challenging himself in Graduation's studies. :-) Love all of you.


   ABHILASH RUHELA - VEERU

21 CoMMenTs !!! - U CaN aLSo CoMMenT !!!:

roopz said...

Congrats


Regards
village girl

Aarthi Baskaran said...

congratulations..!!! good..!! my best wishes for your future.

Anamika said...

Yaa yaa Mr.Blogger has finally turned into a Graduate student :) Bt on a serious note dat diary part superb !! kudos to d spirit..U r truly a inspiration for many out der who r struggling in academics..Again Congrats Abhi n my best wishes for a new start in M.C.A...

Megha jha said...

congrats...!!!! All d best for ur future n keep it up....

Zil Shah said...

Congratulation Brother... Keep going...

Sohail Shaikh said...

Nice......!!!
Best wishes to u for ur future and ur aim's
:)

Unknown said...

Nice.....all the best for the future

Unknown said...

congrats bro.. n best of luck for ur future..nice writing..loved ur blog..:)

hamaarethoughts.com said...

congrats DEAR ..God bless you!
this is the beginning now .. one step ahead then the rest .. keep your goals in-front front of you..be focused ..and never never get into any kind of bad company ..
Get blessed and love parents
..:))

Writing Buddha said...

Thanks Roopz

Writing Buddha said...

Thanks Aarthi. Same to you.

Writing Buddha said...

Anamika, yes that diary part is something which I am too proud to read it today after 3 years again.. :-)That's something which kept me on feet throughout the 3 years of graduation.. and thanks for your big words for me.

Writing Buddha said...

Thanks Megha.. Good to see you here.

Writing Buddha said...

Thanks Zil Shah.

Writing Buddha said...

Thanks Sohail.. Same to you buddy.. :-)

Writing Buddha said...

Thanks Mahesh.

Writing Buddha said...

Mamandeep, good to see you here too. :-)

Writing Buddha said...

Harmam mam, typical guidance. :-) But I like you for this only. :-)

Srivatsan V said...

Very nice and honest Abhilash.. Good that you have made the most of your college life..Good Luck for your MCA also..As a suggestion, I would suggest you to keep reading some self help books every semester during your MCA. I know this may sound elementary but see self help books helps a person to cope up with thoughts of self doubt and failure (I would have been happy if students are asked to read self help books as a part of studies cos i believe that life exists beyond the marks which a person scores in exams)..Also, remember that there are a lot of things which we can learn in life to succeed which our studies wont provide us..ANyways good luck for your future and thanks for making my day..enjoyed reading this post

Writing Buddha said...

Srivatsan sir,

I am too surprised to get such a unique suggestion from someone.. Its really worthy.. i will surely do this.. as u already know that I am in reading and all, Ill continue it.. and thanks a lot. :-)

Anonymous said...

thumbs up for ur future dude.....would like you to c the sky as m doin right nw.....

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