1987th BLOG POST
2021
– The year I think will always stay with me as a memory – a memory – bad or a
learning one – I don’t know – but the date whenever I’ll have to mention 2021
will give me goosebumps. It has been very difficult in all terms for me – either
personal or professional. Luckily and I should also give credit to my
resolution towards bettering my health that this department stayed great for
most of the times. I also tried many experiences for the 1st time
such as a long road trip of around 3200 kilometers which is something I always
wanted to do since we started owning a car as a family. But all of these
examples are like few good scenes from a bad movie which you’ll never recommend
to anyone. At times, I think why did I even had to have these few good
experiences in the year which I would always rate as one of the worsts for
myself. I could have kept it due for 2022 or maybe for 2023 or well, 2024.. and
so on…
You
must have watched the movie – “Life of Pi” starring none other than Irrfan Khan
who is no more with us. I always wanted to watch it but I think it was destined
for me to watch it only in 2021 i.e. 9 years after its release only after I
have suffered same experiences. Thanks to Amazon Prime otherwise I don’t know
how much time it must have taken more for me to reach the movie. Obviously, the
whole movie is worth watching and every scene is a delight but something that
stuck with me is one of the last scenes in which Irrfan Khan cries while
narrating it. Even I cried in that scene and it tore my heart like anything. He
speaks of the instance where their boat finally reaches the shore and the Tiger
finds a forest nearby. He feels that Tiger will once turn back to see him
before getting back onto his life as he had done everything possible to protect
him for months in the middle of the sea. But Tiger doesn’t turn back even once and
enters the forest without giving a damn to Irrfan Khan’s character. It hurts
him so much that even after years, it makes him cry remembering the event.
Seeing
that scene, I felt as if it was so much about me. No, I am not trying to
portray myself as someone who is always good to others but still gets ill-treated.
I am talking only about one-two people here with whom I tried my best to ensure
that the relationship gets strong and beautiful gradually or instantly, but
when it came about showing the same love back to me, just like that Tiger, they
didn’t think twice about me but went ahead in creating a great life for
themselves without caring about my feelings. It made me understand that movie
so well because it wanted to tell us about the basic nature of few human beings
who doesn’t care about what you did for them but the moment, they find a good
opportunity for themselves, they’ll move ahead without worrying or giving a
damn about you.
And
the recent two cases had happened with me in the year 2021 itself and I just
couldn’t stop crying watching that scene. I could feel the pain Irrfan Khan was
trying to portray for the only time he cried during the whole movie. You see
people choosing a different set of people than you when it comes to their
priority irrespective of whatever efforts you have put up to include them in
your life. You see people not even coming to say a good-bye to you for whom you
did everything for every day you were with them just to make them feel pleasant
and not miss that broken part of their life. What is the solution or remedy to
this? Is there something which can provide you immunity against such people who
cares and loves themselves more than you even in conditions where a small
gesture could have made you feel loved?
I
don’t think there’s anything that can ever protect you against such gestures of
people. You are bound to get hurt hence you should never ever expect. Yes, the
same old cliché advice but we don’t know how we end up having expectations in
relationships and keep on punishing our heart, mind and sometimes, even our
soul. And let me tell you – healing a broken heart and mind is still easy and
time-limited task but healing a damaged soul can take your whole life. Wish we
had little sensitive people around us to understand that. Maybe they aren’t
wrong. It is we who lack understanding of people or the circumstances lead us
in expecting from them. Something needs to be corrected within us and in our
lives to ensure maximum happiness from relationships we indulge in. Well, that’s
it. I know the start of 2022 is getting quite depressing on this Blog but I am
unable to get away with the pain 2021 has left upon my soul. May God bless me
soon with a happy soul.
Thanks.
WRITING BUDDHA
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